What is my problem?
What is it with me?
Is there really a problem at all?
I have too many ideas, too many things I want to do and not enough time in the day or even in one hundred years to do them all.
Here's just a few things I would love to do but probably never will as you can only have one career at a time....
To start up my very own greetings card company. Design and publish fab cards. I have already designed 4 ranges, sent off for envelope and board samples, named the company...no time.
I want to make things, knit bags and flowers and toys and egg cosies, scarves and sock and hats. But I don't really know how to knit.
I want my allotment to be the best allotment up there with row upon row of healthy veggies. But I haven't the time to devote to it,, so it's full of weeds. I am yet to grow a successful carrot. I am very good at growing pumpkins though.
I want to write more. I have had several ideas for junior fiction but they never get past 5 chapters.
I want to bake. I want to welcome Nick home from work with a batch of freshly baked cookies. I want a nice kitchen to do it in. Not a fitted one from MFI you understand, but a homely, warm kitchen with nice lighting. I want to wear a full 50's skirt while I'm baking with lots of petticoats...and a pinny. I do not own a pinny.
I want to move to France ( THIS WILL HAPPEN). I want to open a little shop in Brantome and call it Chez Fai, where I'd sell all things faery, from dolls to books. I would deck the place with fairy lights. I would paint the facade lilac. I would have a studio in the little room upstairs where I would work on my children's picture books. I would have a cat who lived in the shop...I would call him....hmmmm...what would I call him....Mabinogion...or Gobolino....or Dave...?
I am in no way complaining. I'm a happy bunny doing my children's books, but I'm never totally content. I'm very restless.
Maybe I should just Jack everything in a become a river gypsy...
I still don't feel as though I have really ACHIEVED anything yet. I know I've had books published...but I've NEVER seen them in a bookshop. I feel there's more in me than I'm getting out.
